A small sense of relief

    Today was another very hectic day. I took Elyjah to his Emory orthopedic evaluation appointment in the city. The doctor recommened another round of botox, a hand specialist and inceased therapy. As for the botoz, we will have to give it some more thought...but everything else, I agreed with her. After his appointment, I took him to school and went to work. I was going to spend the day at home with him but he stressed me out in the doctor's office, throwing a fit and screaming. So off to school he went. When I got to work the secretary said she would pay me for the whole day since I made the effort to come in<- love her. After work I had to run to my other office to turn in an assignment, go to wal-mart to grocery shop, pick up Elyjah from school, come home and feed him, wash a load of clothes, give him a bath..and now to my blog. I really hope tomorrow i can do some more relaxing because I'm exhausted.
    My appointment yesterday with Dr. Tate went very well. He told me that I was a good candidate for a vbac..great news for me! I was really hoping that he would atleast consider the option of having a vaginal birth even if in the end I have to do a c-section. I'm totally okay with a c-section if it comes down to it, I'm not okay with someone wanting to do a repeat c-section just because... Dr. Tate also talked to me about my fears of having complications or something being wrong with my blood. he told me that he would run some blood test on my next visit and refer them out to a thrombologist. I'm excited about that too because no other doctor would test me for clotting disorders even though I was told that clots in the placenta may have played a role in my son's stroke. I don't understand doctors these days. It's not like they would have to pay for the test, I have insurance for goodness sakes.
    My next appointment is on the 28th of September with Dr. Tate. During that appointment he will perform an ultrasound and do my blood work-up. I'm happy and continuing to pray for a peace-of-mind.

xoxo

Anxiety and Fear

   This past weekend was very eventful, to say the least. It started off early Saturday morning having to go to my real estate class. The class is 6 weeks long and teaches me how to become a better agent, i.e get more clients. I'm already finding it difficult because of the amount of work that needs to be done each day. I work a full time job and have to be a wife and mother when I get home. I guess I need to find some way to fit it all in. Anyway, after class I returned home and Delmon left for his second job. Only a few minutes had passed before Elyjah started throwing up. I did not know why and I started freaking out. He was sick all day Saturday : (  Of course all my plans for real estate and house-work went out the window.
    On Sunday, Elyjah started feeling better by the early afternoon, thank goodness. So I proceeded to do my normal Sunday cleaning routine. Sometime in the evening I noticed some light spotting. Of course I immediately paniced. My wonderful husband calmed me down and reassured me that it was normal. I love that man. He's my rock : ) It makes me tear up as I think about it and type it. So, we looked it up on google, of course, and the many resources we found said that it was normal during the first part of pregnancy.
    Today, Tuesday, I have a doctors appointment with a high-risk ob/gyn. I'm really excited to meet him and ask him all the questions that have been on my mind since after Elyjah's birth. This pregnancy has been slightly terrified and anxious but very excited. Hopefully he will have some answers for me, we shall see....

Exciting Day

I am a very impatient person to say the least. I'm not suppose to get my monthly cycle until this Saturday but I just couldn't wait. My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for only one month now so I did not expect to be pregnant. Well anyway, after work yesterday I went to Wal-Mart and got a couple items along with a first response pregnancy test. I optd to get the non-digital one with 3 sticks because it was 4 dollars cheaper. So I went home and took the test. There was one dark pink line and one light pink line. I didn't trust it so I waited until my husband came home and I took another..same thing happened. Now it clearly states on the instructions that this could happen but I just did not trust it. I ended up going back to Walmart to get a digital test after much discussion with my husband (I felt stupid going back there and asking for another test from the same cashier. I tried walgreens first but there tests were 7 dollars more). I came home and took another test and that one said the words "YES+". I was so happy and excited I wanted to cry. My husband was also extremely happy about our new little one. The entire situation is still unreal to me but I have an appointment next Wednesday with a high risk obgyn. I'm so so happy I can barely contain myself.

Road Blocks

   I went to sleep last night with an entire agenda for today. I guess God had another plan for me because when I woke up I could barely swallow. When I got out of bed I realized that my entire body was sore. Thank goodness I already planned on taking off from work because there was no way I was going to make it today. O'well. It seems like anytime I do have free time off from the regular 9 to 5 something comes up and I'm unable to really do what I need to do for my true passion..real estate...which brings me to the foloowing story...
   One week before school started, I called to ask when I should report and I was told that I was not expected to report this year due to budget issues. This came as a complete surprise to me but I was not sad about it. I proceeded to make plans in my head to try and increase my real estate business. I told my husband about what was said and he flipped out internally. His jaw tightened, his face turned away, and his entire aura changed. Of course his primary concern was, how in the world are we going to pay our bills? I on the other hand, had already called on the All Mighty for guidance.
  On the night before school started I get a call from the school secretary asking if I can come in on Monday. Huh? I was taken aback by this. Didn't she just tell me I was fired? Of course I said yes, only for the sake of not arguing with my husband. I mean, I didn't really have a choice in the matter. So now I'm back at the school doing the same thing I did last year. I don't know what my position is, I don't feel like I'm a part of the staff because I have no set role and my salary has been cut.
    I'm trying to find time to expand my real estate business so that I can do it full time. This is what I love. This is what makes me happy.